Sometimes we never know how much someone means to us and are so important to us until that someone is no longer present in our day to day life!
I took this picture of my baby daughter when she was just 3! Just look at that sweet cute face!
My daughter Nurzaimah is one such person whom I miss terribly. She was 9 when I had to migrate to KL after my divorce from her mother.
Nurzaimah is now 14 years old and she’s also like her brother Zikri, a very brilliant student and high achiever. I pray for her success everyday.
Children her age don’t know what happened between her parents when they have no alternative but to choose their own separate ways in life!
She grew up angry that her father is no longer around to shower her with his love, protect her from all harm from the outside world and she is growing up feeling very, very bitter with me. I don’t blame her.
I know how it feels not to have my parents caring for me as I was raised by my sisters after my parents split!
God! How I miss her…she’s always in my heart and my prayers…
You win some ; you lose some! So they say…but I don’t want to lose anyone else anymore in my life!
For all the baptism of fire that I had to go through in my life, God Almighty saw fit to bestow on me, a gift from heaven in the form of my present wife!
A gentle soul, so very patient and understanding…that at times I just can’t believe that she’d choose me, a simple being who’s neither wealthy or an academic like her.
The love and kindness she shows to me since the day I met her online and gradually graduated to be my missus for life is simply something that I can only have dreamed for after suffering all those long years I was living in Penang.
To put it in a nutshell, I was dying inside and showed all the signs of premature aging that comes with trying to fool myself that it was my destiny to suffer in silence!
Those of you who are going through similar episodes in your own life’s, take some time to consider your options.
We live just once in this earthly life. Cherish each and everyone who means anything to us right now , while we are still alive and able to show them exactly how much they mean to us.
You don’t have to buy them expensive gifts to show them that you care for them. You don’t have to go to great lengths to show them how much they mean to you and that they are very,very special to you in your life!
Just tell them that you love them, straight from your heart. That is more than enough to make them feel appreciated, feel loved and feel cherished.
Speaking from my heart, I ask that each and everyone of us take this golden opportunity given by God Almighty to us to show those darlings in our life, those diamonds in our earthly existence their rightful places in the pedestals of our souls!
Let’s show them how much they mean to us , in our own ways, God willing! My well wishes to all!
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Getting very personal these days eh/ Well, this entry really touched me.
Thank you brother, you have jolted me from my slumber, on things I and (I believe many others) have taken for granted all this while.
And having seen what you have encountered in life, I am seeing a more balanced you and that we are just ordinary human beings not without challenges and tests by the Almighty
dear brother mahaguru,
my tears almost dripped(some might think i’m sissy but i’m a sucker when it comes to this situation)when i read this sentimental post of yours. Contrary to the traditional asian belief, dads love their daughters very much nowadays and I’ll be praying to God that some day your daughter will understand the difficult moments you’ve been through.
Thanks my dear brothers for your comments and for wishing that my daughter will have it in her heart to one day forgive me, her father, for having no choice but to leave her all these while to rebuild my life from scratch.
This sentiments have been building up in my heart and soul all these while and the sudden and unimagined emergence of my son in my life within my reach has sort of triggered an avalanche of my pent up feelings of longing for my children!
Can’t help being a human. We all are.One who doesn’t cry is not a humanbeing in the true sense.
We cry when we are delivered from our mother’s womb into this mortal world!
We cry when we experience pain and our hearts if let be in their natural sense of Fitrah that the Almighty created and equipped each and everyone of us with.
Seeing a blind person about to step into a drain will trigger in us , an impulse to go stop him or her from falling into that danger!
It doesn’t matter if you are a tough guy, leader of a hardened gang or really one fearless, superman!
Deep inside, each human being feels a conscience that will keep reaching out to the soul, imploring the humanbeing to do what’s right!
It’s only succumbing to the demands of the ever present and growing ego that stops us from following our heart.
I confess that I was crying as I typed the latest entry for I was going thru all kinds of emotions and everything sort of just flashed back in my mind!
Those memories simply came crashing into my heart reliving the very moments that led to my leaving my children!
I do not mean to turn you all into sobbing and ‘weak’ beings.
I am just sharing with you the ups and downs in my personal life that has sort of taught me the crescendos and pitfalls of failing to cherish those dear ones who color up our lifes!
Imagine the isolation and bleak dreary existence of someone who has no one to love and be loved?
Imagine the solitude of one’s soul if no one bothered whether one is alive or dead?
We are all spiritual beings. We need to keep ourselves alert and know how to appreciate each and everyone who means anything to us in the day to day life’s we live here on Earth within our life’s timeframe.
Thank you dear brothers and sisters for sharing these emotional moments in my life.
Your prayers and wellwishes for me my beloved spouse and my children are really, very, very much appreciated!
Thank you all. You are all special to me..May God bless us all! Amen!